During chemsex all my inhibitions disappeared. As long as they were within my age limit I didn’t care who it was even if they were not my usual type. There was something intensely thrilling about being touched or fucked by someone completely unexpected. Most encounters were anonymous so I never saw their face. I became a body for them to use.
Meth had a way of stripping away restraint. It erased shame made me indifferent and flooded me with desire until I could not stop. Meth and GHB took me to a place where my boundaries vanished. My standards fell away self care was forgotten and I found myself living out fantasies I would not normally entertain offering my body in a way that felt reckless but impossible to resist.
