It’s been a while, and to be honest, I’ve been in a bit of a fog. I was doing really well, but unfortunately, I relapsed last week. It started on Wednesday and carried on through to Sunday evening. Since then, I’ve been trying to get my mind back on track, and I’m now three days clean again.
Looking back, I remember how stressful last Wednesday was at work. The choice in my head was simple: use or don’t use. Sadly, I chose to use. Once I got home, I gave in completely. The moment I relapsed, it felt like I had no control, just like in the past.
But this time, I’m taking a different approach. I’m committing to 90 meetings in 90 days, and I’m following my sponsor’s guidance. I realise I can’t rely on my own way of doing things anymore.
