I almost didn’t share this blog. I kept thinking, What if someone new to recovery reads this and it messes with their head? What if it makes them second-guess quitting? What if it even screws with someone’s recovery? But then I thought, Screw it. These conversations need to happen.
And let’s be real—this blog isn’t just about helping others. It’s about telling my truth. I pride myself on being brutally honest because, at the end of the day, you can either take what I say and use it to make yourself stronger, or you can lie to yourself and stay stuck. Most of us who get caught in the chemsex trap are sharp as hell—even if years of drugs have given us some Olympic-level narcissistic tendencies.
Since getting clean, I’ve been to support groups, events, and met all kinds of people. And let me tell you—there’s a lot of bullshit out there. I’ve met people who lie about their drug use, downplay their connections, or just straight-up rewrite their entire chemsex history. And it’s not just random guys from Grindr or hookup apps—it’s people in support groups, even so-called professionals.
Let’s be honest: nobody just accidentally gets into chemsex. If you’re talking about it, you’ve probably lived it. We’ve been in the madness, and now we’re clawing our way out, trying to live without the chems. But what shocks me is how many people still won’t own up to their past—or worse, their present.
And here’s where I drop a little truth bomb. This might ruffle some feathers, but whatever: some of these so-called “clean” folks are still using or meeting up with people who are. And if that’s you? I hate to break it to you, but you’re playing a dangerous game. You think hanging out with someone who’s high while you stay sober is a flex? Newsflash: you’re not immune. You’re standing on the edge of a cliff, pissing into the wind. And let’s not forget—drugs don’t just disappear because you didn’t take them. They’re in sweat, cum, blood, piss—hell, probably even in their morning-after regret. So yeah, go ahead and tell yourself you’re fine. Just don’t act surprised when you find yourself right back in the chaos.
