Author: mcrguy

At the beginning of my recovery, I was going to meetings like they were a new … Why I’m Going Back to NA (And Not Just for the Drama)Read more

I don’t experience cravings to use drugs anymore—but I do still get flashbacks. Moments, memories, scenes … Flashbacks of the chemsex madnessRead more

In recovery, having a safe space is essential. That space doesn’t always have to be your … Safe placeRead more

I wasn’t the bouncer, but more often than not, I ended up taking on the role … I Was Cruel — And I’m AshamedRead more

Before my chemsex addiction, I used to suppress pain with over-the-counter meds like paracetamol or ibuprofen. … I’m ok with experiencing pain nowRead more

At the time, my sponsor—someone I met through the addiction recovery groups I was attending—kept telling … I remember during my addiction being told to stop!Read more

I feel so much healthier and happier now. My money doesn’t vanish like it used to. … 160 days clean!Read more

In the madness, we are taken—by the thrill, the chase, the night,By sex and talk and … Still your mindRead more

Over the past twelve months, I’ve learned so much about myself—more than I ever expected. I’ve … The meth comedown and my morning cup of coffeeRead more

Something I have deeply struggled with and still do to a degree is that my central … Calming your nerves in recoveryRead more