I’m starting to feel better, especially with my attitude and commitment. It’s been 7 days (though it feels much longer) since I’ve been sober. Before this, I had a six-day streak. As I mentioned in a previous post, it’s been 13 days where I’ve only used Crystal Meth and GHB once compared to every other day before, and the fact that I don’t have cravings is fantastic (note to self: pat on the back).
I was on sertraline for anxiety and low mood since May this year, but it didn’t help much. There’s a risk of serotonin syndrome when combined with meth, which can be very dangerous. If you’re hooked on meth and using it daily, it’s probably not going to work! (Don’t quote me on that; I’m not an expert, and my blog isn’t medically verified.)
Under my psychiatrist’s care, I’ve switched from the SSRI sertraline to the SNRI Mirtazapine, which I had previously taken to help me sleep. A low dosage of Mirtazapine acts as a sedative due to its antihistamine properties. Now that the dosage is increased, it should have more of a mood-lifting effect.
Since my last post, I’ve booked a trip away. I’m currently out of the UK in a sunny place, feeling very relaxed. This break has done me a world of good. Back in Manchester, I was stuck in a vicious anxiety cycle. Getting away has “reset” that, and now I can leave and go outside without feeling on edge. That’s a huge improvement since Monday when I was at my local chemist and heard voices (Yes, I even spoke to someone I thought was talking to me – she was very confused 😂).
I’ve also joined a group with like-minded people on similar journeys. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone, and they’re just like me, sharing similar experiences. Since I like to keep my blog anonymous, I won’t give too many details about the group, but if you look up meth support groups online, there are many in-person and online options available globally.
