It has recently come to light that well-known drag star, The Vivienne, passed away due to a ketamine overdose.
During my own years of drug use, I took a lot of ketamine—sometimes on its own, other times in combination with other substances. I even used it as a painkiller. My experiences with the drug include two particularly frightening occasions where I entered what’s known as a “K-hole.”
The first time, I was walking down some steps in a club when suddenly, I couldn’t move. I felt completely detached from reality, almost as if I were outside my own body. The second time was during sex—my partner arrived, and I was so overwhelmed with fear that I had to cling to him for support until the effects wore off. I ended up apologising and sending him home because I simply couldn’t continue.
More generally, ketamine made me feel completely dissociated. Looking back, I realise that my use of it coincided with a time when I was deeply unhappy. I sought escape and used drugs to numb my emotions, but ketamine never brought me any real enjoyment—only a fleeting relief from pain, misery, and dissatisfaction.
Ketamine is often associated with chemsex culture, and many meth dealers sell it alongside drugs like MKat, almost as an added extra.
