Why did I use drugs? Because I was afraid of myself. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of being alone. Afraid of not being wanted. Afraid of not living up to others’ expectations. Afraid of not being able to feel at ease with someone. Afraid of my true self. Afraid of fear itself. Afraid of vulnerability. Afraid of being abandoned. Afraid of how I look and how I dress. Afraid of how others see me. Afraid of how I speak. Afraid of my appearance. Afraid to dance. Afraid of being in crowds. Afraid of feeling nervous. Afraid of being honest.
I am fearful
